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| Contemplating... |
There
are magic bullets (or magic cures) for everything in storybooks but hardly ever
in real life. We just slog along sometimes, wondering how to make things
bearable if not better. I find it interesting that I struggle most when I try
to live in someone else's version of the world than I do when I insist on
staying in mine. One gets labeled as a rule breaker, as a non-joiner, as a
rebel (or, at the extreme, a misanthrope) but oh, the rewards are much
stronger than the criticism.
I wonder that it took me until I was well into my
sixties to discover what I'd known perfectly well as a child; to function
optimally one must stay in one's own world. From there one can reach out, one
can teach, one can act as an example, but the essential self doesn't get
battered about by those who don't "get it." It's a hard practice when
one works "in the world," requiring constant thought, but it is
easier than fighting those who believe themselves in charge of you.
